Wow, MissChief, that sounds like a really powerful and intense experience!
It's an amazing feeling to be able to bawl your eyes out and be comforted after!!
While I don't have a problem being naked in front of my partner, I can understand some of what it was like to feel like you *couldn't* possible do what he wanted, and then to bring yourself to submit anyway. I'm really glad for you, since it sounds like it was exactly what you needed!