I spent three and a half years with a therapist. The biggest thing "we" found was that I am hyper sensitive to any medication including just plain old aspirin. People reading this who have badly depressed understand how easy it is to get focused one thing and think if you understand that the whole world will be better. We spent a whole year discussing an ex-girl friend from thirty years ago. No matter what she tried to get me to talk about I always drove the conversation back to my ex-girl friend. Then one day I told her about a typical depression where I couldn't even move. She mentioned that in her experience that was always chemical related. Since the only chemicals I take are the OTC type I just stopped one day. Four months later I quit being fixated on my ex and we moved on to other issues. For various reasons I have had to take pain pills, once perscription, and the depressions came back.
I hope this can help other people.
I noticed from other posts that some posters have trouble getting the therapists to get out of their mindset and really try to understand. MIne was the same way. She could listen to my description of me wanting to get a discipline spanking with professional detachment and on a couple of occasions when I talked about my experience with Dom's some actual interest and amusement. Domestic Discipline was a completely different story. Besides spanking DD has lot of interest in it for me because I need to have a relationship different than my Parents which was full of power struggles and emotional abuse of which the fall out was quite damaging to us kids. She would lose her professional detachment when I brought it up. I once mentioned DD bloggers talking about how hard it was to truly submit to the HOH instead of being a game. She snapped at me and said relationships are easy to end now days. Obviously there was something in her background that made it impossible to discuss it. Shortly thereafter I stopped the sessions.