I have Aspergers Syndrome...(high-functioning Autism)...and thrive on rules. This can work really well with my submissive nature. Although it does require an understanding Top, because I can interpret everything as a command, and I also get really panicked when I don't understand something.
I'm currently seeing a new ASD (Autistic Spectrum Disorder) specialist. He was asking about how I cope, and why I'm not coping so well at the moment....
I'm currently unattatched, which has 2 major effects...First, when I get a major panic/anxiety/Aspie attack one thing that helps is a spanking. It refocusses my mind more than anything else I've ever tried! Helps me put things back into perspective. Makes me feel special and cared for despite my insecurities. ..Secondly, there's the fact that on my own I tend to be a little 'wilful'. For example, on the day of my last check-up I got nervous and didn't eat beforehand. When I got there I was told they were checking my blood-sugar. I had to explain I hadn't eaten, but would have if I'd had prior warning of the test. Now I should never skip meals! I have blood-sugar problems and know it! When I have someone in charge of me, one of the first things to get in order is my diet!
The thing is I can't exactly explain to the doctor that I don't need meds...I need control and discipline.
We talked in general terms about how not having a partner has thrown me off kilter, but I couldn't explain everything.
I hate feeling I have to withhold information, hide part of who am I. I have no reason to be ashamed!