Thanks Carelijon. That sounds horrible. It's so hard not to dwell on past mistakes. I'm glad to hear you were able to move beyond your experience with the scumbag. My virus is so weird in that it kind of pops back up and reminds me again about my scumbag experience just when I'd thought I was over it. BUT hopefully that's in the past now, because:
I just had my LEEP procedure to remove the bad cells off my cervix. It was really no big deal at all! The worrying beforehand was BY FAR the worst part. I did find out that burning cervix smells like fritos, but I'm not a squeamish person and I didn't have any pain so I'm happy. The Dr. said there's a 90% chance I'm done with this stuff for good.
Now recovery on the other hand.... NO swimming for a week (but it's july!
) NO sex or tampons for 3-4 weeks (
) and i usually ride my bike everywhere so I'm probably going to have to wait until I'm healed to do that, too, which means I'll have to take the horrible subway everywhere. Most importantly, I wish I felt comfortable asking my doc when it's okay to receive spankings again! But anyway TTWD as we knew it is pretty much on hold. I'm feeling so emotional and since we're so new to TTWD it's too much of a complication to our disciplinary structure.