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This thing we do • View topic - My Childhood

My Childhood

Some of us had perfect happy bunny rainbow ice cream childhoods. Some of us had childhoods that were reasonably okay. And some of us were abused. Much as I'd like to pretend it has nothing to do with my life now, I know that those old issues can rear their ugly heads. Not to mention coping with the judgmental tone a lot of the "healing" literature takes about S/M, let alone the disciplinary stuff.

Re: My Childhood

Postby W-Jigsaw'sBoss » Sun Jun 14, 2009 4:16 pm

I agree with Topper if I understood her correctly...


It's difficult for me to be as reflective about something that I was never inspired to do organically... I agreed because I knew it would be good for J- that's as far as the thought process went. I can reflect on how it is GOING, but what led me to it is pretty dang simple.

I was spanked a few times as a child but the experiences are fairly un-memorable with the exception of being sort of gleeful that my mom got a blood blister because my sister taught me how to clench my muscles and make my butt hard.

We were the lecturing/guilt slinging type of family, mostly. Spanking as an adult feels eons away from childhood.


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Re: My Childhood

Postby Sara'sGirl(SG) » Sun Jun 14, 2009 5:40 pm

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Sing 'til you're breaking glass
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Re: My Childhood

Postby fail » Sun Jun 14, 2009 6:12 pm

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Re: My Childhood

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Re: My Childhood

Postby Eayore » Sun Jun 14, 2009 7:05 pm

Thank you, SMC. It's great to read this and I can see why OneSong is so in love. She is a lucky bottom indeed. :mademyday:
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Re: My Childhood

Postby W-Jigsaw'sBoss » Mon Jul 13, 2009 2:32 pm

This.


You two make me really happy.


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Re: My Childhood

Postby rarewaves » Sat Dec 11, 2010 5:14 am

What i enjoyed a lot during my childhood stage are the different games i played together with my childhood friends.



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Re: My Childhood

Postby W-Jigsaw'sBoss » Mon Feb 21, 2011 11:49 pm

Sorry for reviving a dead post, I just noticed it and figured I'd chime in.

I was spanked as a child a few times, and don't have much residual emotions about it. I didn't like it, I tried to avoid it, my mother hated it (at least once I remember her crying, saying the whole "this hurts me more than it hurts you"- and let me tell you as someone who finds hand spanking really uncomfortable- I relate!!!) and more verbal guilt style punishments were more common in my house.

I remember in my teens and early 20's having a running joke with a friend of mine how I'd be the worst dominatrix in the world, and then providing a fake monologue-

"What? You're not bad! You're a very nice person!!!" a la preschool teacher type that I am.

Coming to this has not only been an adjustment for me, but a shifting of what I thought possible within who I AM. In no way did I fantasize about spanking as a child.

That doesn't mean that I am not growing as a person in very good ways because of TTWD. I'm learning how to be assertive and get what I want, and that's very good. :)


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Re: My Childhood

Postby Meg » Tue Feb 22, 2011 1:57 pm

I'm not going to have a lot of time to post for the next couple of days. I accidentally deleted a databse at work, and I have been lazy about backups recently. I am sef-employed, and Obsidian works at the office with me. So I will be spending my free time writing lines and rebuilding a database for the next couple of days on a hard chair so I can experience the rather major spanking I got last night for that. :blush:

I wanted to chime in briefly to what W said. I intend to write a longer post once my punishment is done. I know that it takes a *lot* of energy and work to be a Top....and I know that I at least can be quite demanding of Obsidian, and a bit needy at times. I know that it must be hard for a Top to accept or admit that they liked and needed ttwd too without feeling bad or like a monster...but, I know the thought that Obsidian might only be doing this because *I* wanted it would make me feel *really* guilty for asking for so much from her. I would hope that she would be getting something out of it too...and not just practice being more assertive. Despite how this sounds, I would want her to be able to get some enjoyment out of it...if this makes any sense.

I'll go more into this on another thread once my punishment is over and I have some more time.
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Re: My Childhood

Postby Eayore » Thu Feb 24, 2011 5:04 pm

That totally makes sense to me, amethyst.
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Re: My Childhood

Postby W-Jigsaw'sBoss » Sun Mar 27, 2011 12:26 am

I think it's really important not to minimize the joy we get in knowing we can meet these needs that our partners have. When it comes down to it, that's the most important. I feel that when I make J a good meal. I feel pride and pleasure knowing that I am the breadwinner of the family. I feel powerful and strong when I, um, satisfy her in every way.


The assertiveness and all that other stuff is just gravy.


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